REMEMBERING MYSELF
A Journey Through the Threads of Time
There are times when the life you have been living can no longer tell you who you are.
Remembering Myself grew out of that place in my own life.
I began looking back through the years—
not to recover the woman I had once been,
but to find the parts of myself I had lost, hidden,
abandoned, or simply forgotten along the way.
What emerged was a journey through memory, family, the body, illness, love, loss, creativity, and Spirit.
Writing and painting became ways of following the threads, each one leading me deeper into the life I had lived
and closer to the woman who had been there all along.
This book is the remembering of who I am.
And perhaps, somewhere within its pages, you may recognize a thread of your own.
This is a book to move through slowly.
The pages weave writing and painting together, sometimes carrying you through story, sometimes asking you simply to stop and look.
There are poems, fragments, memories, images, and moments when the visual work speaks where words cannot.
Some threads reveal themselves immediately.
Others may wait for you.
Remembering Myself was made to be experienced as much as read.
STUDIO EDITION - SIGNED IN THE STUDIO
A small number of copies are available directly from my studio.
Prepared by hand in small numbers—
in the space where this work was lived, unraveled, and brought into form.
Included with each Studio Edition is a hand-created piece from the studio—
made from the same materials and process as the work itself.
Fabric, paper, thread, and stone—something that has passed through my hands.
Not decorative.
Not symbolic in a grand way.
Simply real.
A quiet reminder that remembering lives in the body—
through the hands,
the breath,
and the quiet act of listening.
Like the book itself, the piece may meet you differently each time you return to it.
ANOTHER WAY INTO THE WORK
Some parts of this work are easier spoken than explained.
In this conversation I talk about Remembering MySelf, what led to create it, and the life behind its pages.
In the making...
This began with the desire to include a piece of my process alongside the book.
At first, I thought I was making bookmarks—something usable, recognizable.
Something that fit what people expect to receive.
But somewhere in the process, that fell away.
I found myself doing my work the way I always do, not thinking about what it was supposed to become,
just staying with what was there in front of me.
Letting the process lead instead of the idea.
Each stitch had to be found, not planned.
The thread didn’t follow a pattern—I followed it.
There was no way to know where it would lead or how it would come together, only that I had to stay with it and keep going.
And in that, I realized I was learning, remembering, with each one I created.
I wasn’t making something for someone else.
I was doing the work for myself—something I would do whether there was anyone on the receiving end or not.
This is the way I live and create.
At a certain point, it became clear—they are not bookmarks.
They are the work itself.
Straight from my hands, from my process, from the way I move through things when I don’t try to control the outcome.
Each one is different. Uneven. A little strange. Completely its own.
I chose not to finish the back. The threads remain. Knots where they’re needed.
Nothing hidden. Nothing made to look complete.
Because this is how life actually happens.
Messy.
Unfinished.
Always in motion.
Just like life itself.
Each Studio Edition is signed in the studio and prepared by hand before being sent into the world.
If you would like your copy personally inscribed, you can leave a note with your order.
From Readers of Remembering Myself
“DK Hillard is truly a magician, weaving a brilliantly written tale of personal transformation with her own original artwork. Remembering Myself – A Journey Through the Threads of Time is fresh and ancient. I encourage you to accept her invitation into the experience.”
Patricia Ballentine, Priestess
“Within its pages, we visit the wicked and the wonderful, the pain and the triumph of a full-blooded life. Take down the book and sit with it often. Each visit will bring a new reward, a new insight, a new understanding.”
Joseph Monninger, author of Goodbye to Clocks Ticking
“DK Hillard’s story of transformation and growth is extraordinary… because it is an inspiration to anyone who thinks it is too late to become who they are truly meant to be.”
Tse Wolfrider, Shaman
“DK Hillard has created a brilliant postmodern pastiche, replete with expressionistic paintings and eloquent writing. She intertwines her mother’s story with her own as she chronicles her life of trauma, heartbreak, and resilience.”
Greg Stone, author of the Ronan Mezini Mysteries and Artful Business: 50 Lessons From Creative Geniuses
Where Remembering Led
Remembering Myself was about finding my way back to myself after years of losing pieces of who I was.
But remembering was only part of it.
At some point, I had to live from what I had remembered. That changed everything.
The Fire and The Thread grew out of that next part of my life—the illness, the losses, the ceremonies, the unraveling, and the deeper work of learning what it meant to actually live from what I knew to be true.
EDITIONS
Remembering Myself is currently available in hardcover through Amazon for those who prefer to order there or are outside the U.S.
Paperback and eBook editions are now available, offering more accessible ways to enter the book.
Remembering Myself is the remembering of who I am.
The Fire and The Thread chronicles the journey toward embodying that remembering.
The Fire and The Thread — Coming December 2026
If something in you is stirred by this book, you don’t have to leave it here.
READ
Continue with reflections and writings that carry these threads into everyday life.
EXPERIENCE
Step into your own process of remembering through guided experiences using image, symbol, and your own inner knowing.
BEGIN
A quiet place to begin with simple creative practices that invite you to follow what draws you.
You don’t need to take it all in at once.
Just follow what calls to you.